Hello, it is amazing how the gaps in a relationship can take you do really crazy things, especially to women, and as a smart man and a fan of "great detail" (which lacks many) can get you out of control unless you realize. However, that was exactly what happened to me to me.
I'm Fernanda, I'm 26 years old, and I was in dating relatively well for 7 years, with wedding plans, but does not know or like, or when or why, but it's over. It was difficult, but not as much as I thought, thanks to the presence of Jorge. To him, met it in October of the year 2013, opened a very interesting cultural Café and striking to my intellectual tastes, definitely go there gave me full satisfaction starting with the attention of Jorge, which although physically it is not an adonis, has a brain too provocative for my taste, a man very interesting and smart and not selfish when it comes to teaching. It should be noted, he has 43 years, major for me, Yes, I know it, but at that time he was not aware of that, because I never thought that I would get involved with it. Despite the jealousy of my boyfriend, my ex-boyfriend, now is now that I understand what was their fear, although we ended up for reasons unrelated, I I got involved with Jorge months before ending with Joseph, my ex.
Between talk and talk, the coffee was growing in its demand, and there was where I began to work with Jorge eventually, never spent anything, all a man, a gentleman, respectful, faithful to his girlfriend, which lives in another city and you see out there every month. She is divorced like he, she has two daughters, he does not, however, do not live together, their relationship called courtship. I am very outgoing, and have a silly habit which is the cause in some way to the men, saying things as well as that I am jealous, or in love, but joke and they know it, with no story sometimes is that I am a victim of my own invention and that I came with him.
We started to study together, parallel to this, started sharing scenarios outside of work, always drank coffee after class, and were going hours conversing of many topics, but always learning from him. By that time my relationship with Joseph started from bad to worse, he not returned me to play instead with Jorge, while we had never given us a kiss, we begin to feel desire one on the other, since he did I know when said me that it caused him and I would scare the day that pulled my blouse buttons; It was a supremely erotic moment for me, through their words. I clarify in this story that he had only had sex with Joseph, because both lost virginity together, and I was obsessed with experimenting with a second man. As well, the warning of Jorge was met, it was the day that kissed me for the first time, in the middle of a coffee plantation, with the bandmates in the main house, we went with the excuse to take photos, but I did not think he would dare to kiss me and touch me, because I always underestimated it and always believed he would not be able to take the risk. My boyfriend I did not touch, desire that ran through my body was impressive, and not only Jorge kissed me but that touched me, touched me in a way that my body reacted automatically giving to know that it was very pleased by his caresses, however, were not together because of my nervousness and obviously the lack of protection.
Days later I went to work, our friendship continued as if nothing, both mature, especially me I am much younger; coffee closed at 11 pm approximately and the scene was repeated, again without protection, but the third was lucky, among many doubts, mostly by him, we decided to be together, I decided that the outside my second man unless he knew it, he was very nervous, because according to him, not usually being unfaithful, he is not going with its principles , and the truth, I believe him, because it has proven me to be a proper man, however, could you your desire for me, and endorsed me for the first time, I couldn't believe it, my second time, was happy and even more so because it was with him, a smart man, simple, experienced, and special, a man of great small details. That took place in August 2014, and did not return to happen, I kept going to work, we were still talking, drinking coffee, but not intimately returned to happen, always had someone with us, his brother which
Days later I went to work, our friendship continued as if nothing, both mature, especially me I am much younger; coffee closed at 11 pm approximately and the scene was repeated, again without protection, but the third was lucky, among many doubts, mostly by him, we decided to be together, I decided that the outside my second man unless he knew it, he was very nervous, because according to him, not usually being unfaithful, he is not going with its principles , and the truth, I believe him, because it has proven me to be a proper man, however, could you your desire for me, and endorsed me for the first time, I couldn't believe it, my second time, was happy and even more so because it was with him, a smart man, simple, experienced, and special, a man of great small details. That took place in August 2014, and did not return to happen, I kept going to work, we were still talking, drinking coffee, but intimately did not return to happen, always had someone with us, his brother who works with us, or friends, or the bride, etc. Me, I had no boyfriend, (while of the mine, the it was theirs alone, and left me by his co-worker) it was difficult for me, but Jorge was the small light in that darkness, even if it was only for his friendship.
But things began to change, from one moment to another, our friendship became stronger, and we became great friends and companions, friends who are liked very much and when had small opportunities gave me a good dose of oral that left me breathless; Although comparisons are odious, Joseph was very shy in this regard, and almost not allowed to do him orally, nor much less to me. I wanted to evolve sexually with Joseph, but he preferred to stay behind and that still even hurts me. However Jorge is an obsessed by providing pleasure and drink from my source, which is well generous when he gives me a finger over and returning to the topic, the only thing that happened was oral among us. It was 4 months into abstinence, meanwhile, his gaze toward my changed, became more transparent, more natural, I can say that I can see you soul when I look, communication grew more, we are a complement in the work, in the Studio, in friendship, everything would indicate that we are the one to the other, but we later got to know us.
In November the opportunity came again, this time a second time we were together, it was wonderful, the third, definitely is a very special man, one of the most beautiful experiences I've had, but I am afraid, his girlfriend has now returned for Christmas, I saw only to arrive, and I work the other week with them two, I don't know how I'm going to feel I don't want to fall in love with him, I feel that it attracts me too, but I don't want to feel love, because it is too with the disappointment I had with Jose. His girlfriend think that she is older than him, but she is a very arrogant, I don't know how a person as it can be with a woman It is dominant, superficial, and he is a madman, artist pint, perhaps because it is; now is when I start I feel frustrated, as a friend, as a person, as lover is the best, obviously with their defects, intend less to what idealize it, but it is such which would have preferred a man for me, but it is impossible, it is a love behind the scenes and feel that he wants me to, that there is something more than, rather than friendship, there is something more that you define what , it was my second time (now you know it and has surprised, feel honoured) where I could experience the pleasure in its pure State, without sentimentality, where an old has fulfilled the duty to fully satisfy a colicuada, as he tells me. Now I feel that it is the beginning of the end. It hurts, because I want to continue feeling good, intelligent, required, important, but this must end, and more so now that is it here. It has just arrived, and I do not see the hour that is going again so that this colicuada go running to his arms again.
Until me di account that he liked a girl of my course. A companion that I was at all. I was the best student and still me post but the other girl was younger scholar linda and that in order for it nurturer was perfect. And now turned to collapse everything. But each time he speaks I feel is not correct if I speak with him or agree with him in the future me leveled. So I cannot share anything with him. Each time that his girlfriend is not always is with me or we play and that but it is not right and I have a feeling that I will suffer this stress out of the school.
